Alone

My Mom died on March 15.

Watching her suffer for the last few days of her life was the hardest thing I've ever had to do, so her death came as a relief. For a while. Then the reality sank it. She's gone forever.

I'm all alone and the loneliness is often unbearable. Every day there are things I want to tell her, but I can't.

I'll be 60 in a few days time. I've never been married and I don't have a social life to speak of. A large part of my days is spent online or watching television. Or shopping. Weekends are usually the only time I get to see people I know.

The time has come to create a new life for myself. A life with meaning. But where to I start?